Anonymous asked: I'm glad you're in a better place. We're entering our senior year again, it'd be good if we both end on a high note. I know you're BME but I don't know if you're premed? If so, i wish you the most luck. It's weird, thinking of what you knew about someone, what you know about them, and the fact that it really isn't that much We're dolphins, but you've gone so far in your life that those 6 years we spent are becoming a sliver. The corporate struggle is real, yet I remain undaunted. We persevere.
Ha ha! We get closer to figuring you out, you frackie 👀👀 and you have a point. I think in general when I see people again they say I haven’t changed at all so you might be surprised. SO LET ME CATCH YOU UP A BIT. As for the premed stuff, I’ve always wanted to do it but more so just to be called Dr. Peace. I might not actually do it. BME has been a good change for me though. Psychology was interesting and fun but I didn’t feel challenged so I switched. These days im more into web design and development which kinda suits me considering I’ve always been drawn towards art stuff but have never been remarkable with more expressive arts that like evoke emotion etc. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like I’ve done much of anything in these 4 years but your outside perspective reassures me that I’m putting on a good front haha.
And you have a point that those 6 years become more of a sliver but I also contend that those 6 years were pivotal for a lot of us. I’d say those 6 years were the most important developmentally (for me at least) so they’re still worth a lot to me to have shared them with you. I mean add another 4 years and yet we’re still talking right? You’re right though. It is weird. It’s weird that there are these people I was barely familiar with but would hug or smile to as we passed in the hallways. Now sometimes I see them on the bus going back to Chicago and nothing. Some people choose to let go of those years and that’s valid but I could never.
It’s strange to be growing nostalgic of things that were actually pretty recent. It’s funny because I started reading my old texts on this phone (recall my phone broke) and it’s super cringey. I was reading texts from one of my exes and I was like “lmao no wonder shit didn’t work out” so it helped me get closure…..3 years later. Now I’m just sad we’re not friends anymore…ANYWAY.
Corporate world is terrifying. I’m watching my best friend turn into a corporate drone. She’s been pressed on time and drained of energy. And so many minor details seem to matter in her office and can get blown out of proportion. I don’t think it’s the best lifestyle for her but she’s drawn to it and seems satisfied so I can’t argue. And she’s making bank so I suppose that’s the trade-off. So ya! You will persevere. Gosh I always end up getting carried away with these responses. I miss not having a 140 character limit!
Wassup my old mutuals that I haven’t interacted with in over a year?!?
Anonymous asked: So I guess in the end, whatever you do, keep going. I mean, stop to sleep and eat because that's even more important but when it gets tough and you hate yourself and everyone around you, keep going. You only lose when you stop. Now go out there and get it! (maybe we'll run into each other at the alumni college fair, eh?)
My phone is being weird so I’m using my old phone which still has the tumblr app. It was hell turning this phone on again because I had some 3000 notifications since it hasn’t been on in over a year. Anyway I started going through this stuff again because you always made me really happy when I needed it. I hope it makes you feel good to know that I’ve been doing great. I really hope you have been too. I don’t even know if you still use tumblr but I had to reply because it’s been so long and I don’t want our friendship to go stale. I’ve transitioned to Twitter just because I couldn’t stay on this site anymore. Really pushed me too deep in a dark place. Now that I have to use this phone for a little while however maybe I’ll be around some more. I still watch everyones snapchats once in awhile but still no closer to figuring out who you are but I’ll leave it a mystery. Unless you’re my roommate which would be wild lol. point is, I’m tryna reconnect. Chat it up if you want. Catch you up on what’s been good and happening and see how you’ve been. And if you’re gone by now then I guess it was just meant to be that way.
P.s. If I ever get married, I’d like you to come. Alternatively, my next extravaganza/fefe I’d like to invite you too. And when I die you should print out a photo of yourself and place it on my grave so you know I’m rolling in my grave when I rage over how obvious it was that you are [insert your name here].
In general I’d say I’m in a better place than I was last year and undoubtedly a better place than the year before that but I still feel like I lack control over my emotions at times. And that’s kinda shitty. Cuz that means one unintentional exchange could pull me right back to square one.
